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Emotional Abuse Made Me Feel Like I Was Crazy | The Doctor Weighs In
By: Allie Johnson
Medically reviewed by Patricia Salber MD, MBA (@docweighsin)
My boyfriend told me I was crazy and I believed him. But I later learned that emotional abuse is part of the cycle of abuse.
My fingers tremble as, knuckles white with force, I carve one last SLUT into the kitten calendar on Ally’s desk (that’s Ally with a “y” not an “ie”. I am not talking about myself in the third person).
Half blinded by sticky hot tears I fling open the closet and throw clothes all over the room. With a final burst of chaotic energy, I tear off the comforter on her bed, leaving the mattress halfway off the bed frame.
Standing in the sea of turquoise hangers and Ally’s multitude of cardigans, I stare in horror as regret turns hot tears cold. What have I done?
Greg, my ex, had just left, so in a haze, I unlock the door and shamble over to my room as thoughts swirl in my head:
Ally telling me she was upset when she and I were fighting a few months ago because Greg wouldn’t talk to her.
“I just felt like I lost my best friend when that happened. Him and I are close.”
